AFM...

I typically try to keep stuff about me off of this blog...But I'm having some health issues and it might explain my lapses in memory and my absence from blogging....
I saw my PCP on Monday because I was having some issues that were worsening...Andrew dropped the news on me that I've not been hiding these symptoms very well...he has known something was up for months...and then the dr confirmed that I've been having these symptoms as far back as March 2008. She ordered bloodwork, an MRI and suggested I see the eye specialist.

Then she did what she calls a basic neurological exam. She held up fingers and had me look her directly in her eyes while she moved her fingers and asked how many she was holding up...According to Andrew later on, I got 9 out of 10 WRONG I was so sure I had gotten them right too...Geeze....

Anyways, let me tell you the rest of the saga...our health insurance...UGH! I went to make the appt for my MRI and found out that b/c I have a $750 deductible plus 20% coinsurance I would have to pay $806 out of pocket...well, DH is added to my policy as of 8/1 (the day of my MRI) and my deductible raises to $2250!! So I would've had to pay the full $1,032.77 for the MRI....

Well it just so happens to be open enrollment at my job...so I was able to change our plan as of 8/1 with a simple phone call and fax. It's costing me an extra $30 a week but the MRI will only cost me $100 copay instead....No deductibles and some of the other copays change. An added bonus is that it has accupuncture and chiro covered. Hopsitalizations (if requried) and surgeries are covered with a 100 or 500 copay vs. a 20% coinsurance (plus 2250 deductible)...

Since we aren't sure where all this is going to lead...more MRI/CT's/surgeries whatever, we decided to switch to the other plan...Please tell me we made the right choice? Andrew wasn't so sure and now he's stressing that he's gonna have to pick up more clients ... while at the same time he's worried that he needs to be home more to take care of me and the kids...

I waited all week...checking my email every five minutes watching for my lab test results. Finally on Wednesday my dr called while I was gone picking up Harley since my DH never gives me my Damned cell phone I missed the call....By the time I called back the nurse was the only one there and she told me I had high phosphorus but everything else came out normal. I have to repeat the test in 2 weeks.

I am so so so much more depressed now...I get to wait more and more to get an answer...so I wrote an email to my dr asking if I should just cancel the MRI...why bother paying for it at this point? I doubt it will show us anything if all my b/w came back fine. She advised me to go ahead with the MRI espesically since the b/w came out fine (except for the phosphorus).--phosphorus is 6.0 ... normal limits are 2.0-4.5 so it doesn't seem that high? Right? This is all pointing at it being a kidney problem -- it could also be a parathyroid problem though. BUT IDK If you all remember -- but when I was pg with Zac I had some major kidney issues going on - to the point that they set an induction date before it "caused permanent damage" to my kidneys. I was referred to a nephrologist right after he was born who followed me till March and said everything looked good and gave me a green light to ttc (and I got pg that month)....I was talking to Andrew about it and he was like "sounds like baby making's over -- that's probably what's causing us to lose our babies"....BUT BUT BUT....phosphorus can be elevated due to pg and I've been pg the past two cycles...and now it's proven it was not a false positive per labs (according to my PCP)...

I wish I could've talked directly to my dr....but nooooo, Dh had to keep my cell phone in his pocket while he took a f&*# nap!!!

It also rules out that all those tests were false positives...which if it had been my pituitary that would've proven that point that the OB's been trying to make...(for those that don't read my ttc blog I had another chemical pregnancy the cycle before I had this appt...so that makes two months in a row!).

I finally did email my dr asking for some anti anxiety meds. I go in Wednesday to find out if they will give them to me or not....wait, wait, wait!!