Well, Andi's EDD is only 4 days away...I still have those moments where I break down into tears thinking I should be holding my sweet little baby girl in my arms and celebrating her arrival...add the sadness that even though I've gotten 3 bfps since her demise, I still am not successfully pregnant...
I think I figured out some things about this cycle and that is making it easier to be 'at ease' with AF's immiment arrival (spotting started today right about on schedule)...at least it seems to be on schedule with the adjustments I figured out. Besides with the adjustments our timing wasn't right nor did I take the progesterone at the right time in the cycle.
I did some research (of course) and found a study where 77% of the ladies undergoing "progesterone treatment" after recurrent miscarriages and/or unexplained infertility were pregnant within six months. I will hold onto that as a positive thought, hey, I still have five months left. If we are not successfully pregnant by April we will stop trying so actively but will not opt for any birth control (what's the sense anyhow right?)...So IF I'm not pregnant by April...Maybe, just maybe I'll get a 'surprise, change-of-life baby!"? I'm still hoping that I'll be in the 77% that went on to have successful pregnancies within the six months though...
And Hey If I get pregnant next cycle, Kelly may have a sister who shares her birthday?! And if not then, then I'll have a Halloween baby, and if not then, I'll have a Thanksgiving baby, and if not then a Christmas baby...and if not then a (my 41st) birthday gift...and if not then a Valentine's Day baby...I could go on finding good reasons -- or is it seasons :) -- for the next month too!
2 comments:
Glad to see that you are finding some positives in your long journey to be a mom again. Thinking of you!
-Terri
I know you will get a sticky + very soon, hang in there. The wait will be so worth it!
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