On the ttc front...I am so confused...I'm only on cd 6 and already having O symptoms...(O pains, backache, CM, etc). Even did an OPK yesterday and it was nearly positive!?? I'll do another today...this is the last of my opks...I don't think I will bother ordering more.

This depression has just been getting worse and worse the last two weeks or so...which is upsetting Andrew a lot and we are arguing a lot because I just can't snap out of it on my own right now. Not very condusive to baby making...so I'm sure we'll miss the egg this time. I did go out and invest in some Vitex to try to get my cycle regulated instead of all this weird stuff going on (short cycle, long cycle, short luteal phase, long luteal phase, false bfps). And now I don't know what to call it other than cold feet??? I don't know if I should tell Andrew that the fertile signs are there...I'm beginning to think that he's only ttcing for me because of the loss of Andi and not truly because he wants Anthony...No matter what he says (yes, I've talked to him about it and he insists and gives his reasons, but still....).

OK, end of that story....