Hoo Humm!

Well, its a holiday weekend and it's just gonna be boring around here! Just gives me a chance to catch up on stuff.

Trying to reflect what has got me feeling down and I just can't narrow it down to one specific thing...I guess this time of year I'm always down. The kids go back to school which means the custody schedule goes back to where I only get to see my kids a couple of hours a day. We don't even get to do our family dinner time...Then there's also the fact that I have to recertify Harley's CES (extensive medicaid benefts) which means I have to keep a log of all the interventions we do in a 24 hour period...sigh...And I was so excited he was 'improving' but in reviewing last years' log I still have lots of the same behaviors, plus we can add a few now that we're in the new house.

Thursday I finally got some sleep (oh wait, I already touched on that!). Friday was such a long day...I had to have Harley to the dentist at 8:30 and had him and Tyler on my own...BUT I managed. It's just hard getting Tyler in and out of the car seat with me not feeling well and him being close to 25 solid pounds! After that we went to a couple of game stores trying to find Harley his Gameboy DS he's been asking for for weeks...Went to 3 different stores and none of them had a used one (I figured a used one would be cheaper)...Found out at the last game store we stopped at that they no longer make that one and it's hard to come by used and that they sell used for $75 to $80...Well it's at Walmart for $80 so that's where we went. We also got some new curtain rods so I can sit and look at them and not see them hung at all...Unless of course I find the time and energy to do it myself.

We also had to go to Petsmart to get a bark collar for the dog. The stupid dog barks non STOP! and the neighbors complained to us the other day. I can't stand that we may just get a nuisance ticket over the dog's barking...so I invested in one of those..Who knew the manager would give me the 3rd degree and require an interview with me to determine if I could buy it...GRRH...Well this is the 12th time I've had to transfer Tyler in and out of his carseat and my belly's just killing me at this point...the day's not even 1/2 over and it's hot and it's only 10 AM....So we went next to pick up my paychecks...Tyler decides to do his typical toddler screaming when we're in the office....*sigh*....

We stopped at Burger King for lunch...YUK! I usually like this kind of food but ANY kind of food turns my stomach the last couple of days....We got to come home for an hour and eat and change the baby's diaper then it's back on the road to take Harley to his psychiatrists appointment. Tyler has another Toddler Tantrum just as we're called back and proceeds to pull my hair and smack me in the face...He wanted to stay in the waiting room...

I got home expecting Kelly to be home from school by now...No sign of her. Since this is her first year riding the bus I do worry...I tried calling her on her cell phone, but she didn't answer so I start to freak out. Andrew's in the bedroom sleeping (and I had tried to call him from the van since I had Tyler and Harley still packed in)...He didn't even answer the phone...Pissed me off! Anyhow while sitting waiting for word about what's going on, Robert and Jenna get home...Jenna immediately jumps into the van and starts talking 100 mph that she wants Kelly to spend the night and she's already cleared it with her parents...I don't get to see that much of my daughter! She's only home from Friday afterschool this week until Saturday at noon...I want some time with her too...But I've gotta let her have time with friends too...FINALLY Kelly calls to tell me her bus broke down. I went and picked her up...By the time we got home, Jenna's mom was there to pick up the girls...I just miss my daughter so much and she would rather be elsewhere? I let her go anyhow....Then I had to come home and get dinner going...Get Tyler a bath...Get laundry started...I'm just exhausted by 8 and Andrew goes to lay down and says "wake me up at 9:45". Great, now I get to do what I can to stay awake till I get him up...Then he wants time to talk before he goes to work and he always gets me so worked up I can't sleep...Finally he leaves for work at 10:15 so I try to go to bed.

At 12:30 the dog wakes me up barking. Andrew's decided he's going to put her on her tether in the backyard overnight (we already discussed this and I told him it was not a good idea till we could get the barking under control...Then I couldn't get back to sleep! It took till 2 for me to fall back to sleep...Tyler wakes up at 4 screaming...I let him scream through it and he falls back to sleep on his own, but now I'm wide awake again....I finally fall back to sleep around 5:15 and Andrew wakes me up at 6....

So goes another day. The kids are in and out of here driving me nuts to look up things on the computer, asking what's for lunch....I guess I better get going. I have so much more to vent about but it will just have to wait! I swear sometimes I feel like I never get any 'down time'...