Well with today's temp plummet AF should be here any minute. I know I said I was hoping AF would show...but this was truly my last opportunity now that Andrew has lost his job. I need to accept it and move on...that is going to be very hard to do. I'm trying not to dwell on it -- but how can I help it...After trying for so long...After finally getting my LP longer than 11 days....now I have to stop all efforts. It's killing me!!
To the ladies on my boards...If you don't hear from me for a few days know that I am just trying to accept this awful decision that got thrown into my lap at the last minute. Now I must face the fact that my last pregnancy was the one that wasn't meant to be ... and another will never follow .... I am beyond words with grief....
Sure I can hope for a miracle...I can hope that Andrew's job will reinstate him as a full time employee once he receives his brace in a week. But for the time being I must try to accept that this chapter has ended and a new chapter is about to begin...
I only hope that he can find the motivation to find a new job so that I don't have to leave the kids behind...Once again, I get to enter the workforce and miss one of my kids' important milestones...I get to handle the stress of working AND trying to manage the household from afar because--even after all these years--Andrew can't keep the schedule straight...I get to handle all the paperwork and use my lunch break to make all the important calls (and probably miss the return calls, taking it twice as long for me to get anything accomplished).
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I'm so sorry Tracy.
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