My Heart is Broken....

One of my dear fellow moms of angels friends got the worst news today. It's just not fair! First God blessed her with twins...only to rudely rip one away just before 10 weeks. Today she goes in for an ultrasound and learns that her sweet little girl, Cameron Michelle (Cami) has developed fluid where her brain tissue would be. The diagnosis for Cami is grim to say the least. I thought my five week journey of learning that Andi would not survive was hard...but it just cannot compare. Cami does have a brain stem and can perform involuntary movements so poor Julie is reminded of this news every time she feels her little daughter move.

Now Julie and her husband are facing the worst, most awful decision a parent should ever have to make...I so wish I could be there with her...helping with her children, holding her hand, being a shoulder to cry on...I was even thinking of trying to find my way to the west coast to attend the service.

Julie is the most wonderful woman...she always finds a silver lining and can always find the words to make you smile when you are feeling desperation. It is so unfair to cloud this ray of sunshine with such an awful experience!

I was so angry at God to begin with today (for something in my own life, dealing with TTC) and then to learn of this devastating news....I am flabbergasted! How dare he do something like this to her after taking Cami's twin already? I am just so angry with him....I know it's not necessarily him that's in control of this and I wax and wane in my beliefs because of these very instances.

So if you are the praying type, please pray for Julie and her family...I am hoping to send as much positive energy her way as I possibly can...We need to make her FEEL our love for her...no matter what decision she is forced to make.

Also feel free to leave a comment here for Julie and her family and I will be sure to pass it on.