Not even worth $6

All last week I was trying to talk the kids into doing something out and about..The zoo? Lakeside amusement park? Hiking? No one was interested in doing any of these things...

Yesterday they continued to make plans for what all they're gonna do while Andrew's on vacation...my feelings were pretty hurt because I tried to get them to do some things last week, but they wanted to 'wait and do them as a family'...now they're doing all this planning and I'm left out...Sure they include me to find out if there's money in the budget to do what all they want to do...but it's things I can't participate in...either because I have other appointments, I have the two little ones, or I've gotta pick up Harley...Yes I will flat out say it...my feelings are hurt.

I asked why they want to do all these things this week and they didn't want to do anything last week and the answer? "Well Harley was home and he wasn't having a good week"...Great?! Doesn't anyone think I need a break too?

So--today they have friends coming over and they will all spend the night...Wednesday they will all get up and pile into the van when I go to take Harley to camp and I'm going to drop them all off so they can go to Elitches (with Andrew). Thursday they are planning on going tubing...I even stopped and got them some tubes yesterday! Friday the kids are going to Water World (without Andrew). What am I doing? Appointments, transportation, providing the money...I don't even get to do the trip to Lakeside with family this week like I was planning on Friday now...

Last night, Andrew decides he can stay awake long enough to watch a movie. We went out at 9:00 last night and rented the Bucket List and Fool's Gold. We stopped by the liquor store...we had discussed it and we didn't have all the makings for a nice sweet mixed drink (Andrew wanted to stick to hard liquor for some reason?)...I asked for wine coolers. Something light and refreshing so I could be comfortably numb...Andrew comes out of the store with a tiny little bottle of rum??!! WTH?! I don't even get THAT much? Yup, once again I got over ridden becuase "the wine coolers were like 4 for nearly $6 where this little tiny bottle of rum was only $6!" I DO NOT like the taste of rum, so it really kinda pissed me off...why can't he stand to spend a little bit of money on me and something I specifically requested?

So I stayed up till 2am watching movies with Andrew and Kelly. Here it is 6AM and I'm up getting ready to start running for the day...no chance for a nap today...I've got too many appointments. I've got three boys to get ready on my own and shouldn't even be sitting here typing this, but I'm just so darned frustrated!!

They won't plan anything to involve me...Andrew doesn't even have the courtesy to get me something I specifically request because "it costs $6?" I mean am I not even worth that much?

Oh well, I guess I better get on with my day...The OT comes today. I should hear back from the psychiatrist today, I've gotta call the pediatrician too now that the special needs nurse is back from vacation...

Is it so wrong of me to want to be included in some of the family things? I mean I'm willing to find a baby sitter for the two little ones, but then it gets brought up that I won't have a lot of time since I have to pick up Harley at 3:00...Whatever I guess...