It's late....

And I know I haven't blogged all day...so unlike me for the last couple of weeks...

Tomorrow is Kelly's last day of school...She will be a high schooler...

Harley's having problems realizing the end of the school year is over. We finally were able to calm him by telling him he's growing and now he's gonna be a 6th grader!?? Yikes! Summer camp starts Monday so we've been busy completing the last minute paperwork there....

Robert started his first paying summer job (sure it's working in grandpa's shop with his dad, but still). I haven't seen him in over a week. I can't even remember the last time I've gone a whole week without seeing my older son!!

Zac has gotten really happy, laughy, giggly and DEMANDING! He LOVES the ring sling (more than the hotsling) and I find myself carrying him all day in it just to be close to him (at least when he's not napping or doing floor time). I'm still watching Craigslist for a jumperoo, but just can't bring myself to spend $50 on the thing!!

Tyler's started potty training...that's not going too well. He will sit on the pot for 5-10 minutes, get a diaper on and then do his business...Today he told me "potty" and when we got there, he had already gone in his pants. So WE put it in the toilet, wiped and put on a diaper. FIVE MINUTES later he comes to me and says potty...I take him again...He had ALREADY gone again in his diaper (just one little nugget but STILL!)....We even tried some real underpants with rubber pants over top and he still peed and pooped in them...and I had to clean the couch!! GRH...oh well, when he's potty trained I'll start thinking...where'd the time go?

Andi's been on my mind a lot lately. Yesterday I was supposed to go in for my beta draw to 'confirm' my hcg is at zero....I was NOT ready for that! It has made the last couple of days hard. I finally went in today and got the draw done. Speaking of which, I am still getting nothing but pure white (no line at ALL) on my opks...It hit me today that I only got my BFN a week ago today...Soooo chances are O will be next week (if it's gonna be the typical O on CD 13-14...even though my ticker says I'm CD16, if you count back 7 days (bfn day), I'm only on cd9...I had to tell Andrew to slow down and let some swimmers survive...He's pretty motivated to knock me up right away. After all, he did want me to have this baby before my 40th birthday...and now with the loss of Andi, that won't happen. Maybe it has something to do with him turning 45 next week? IDK...Doesn't matter...I just hope it happens...He and I have decided to start taking family neighborhood walks after dinner each night and had a nice discussion...He thinks if we (1) can manage financially and (2) can finish the basement while we're both still in child bearing years....we could try for more than 6!! Oh, I'm so excited at the thought. I've always dreamed of a large family!!

Andrew's been working some extra hours this last week and I'm hoping that he'll get some rest....Hey at least it's not O week....I guess that's one good thing coming out of Oing 'later' than expected....

OMG and I can't believe what I did today. I went to the lab and of course had to walk through OB to get there...I peeked down the hall, knowing that Dr. McC works on Thursdays most weeks as long as he's not on rotation at the hospital (which he's not scheduled to be...none of the dr's at that clinic are for this whole month). I didn't see him...Then as I was leaving the parking lot I found myself looking at the other cars trying to see if I could figure out what he drives...I mean he IS probably about 6'4" tall so I'm thinking an SUV...OK, I think about him too much...But Andrew thinks it's fine and nothing to worry about...He says 'after all, how could you let someone you don't like/trust be in your 'area' and not have an attachment to him"...I'm so glad I have an understanding husband...It will pass I'm sure....

OK, I better try to get some sleep tonight. Kids start getting off of school for summer vacation at noon tomorrow!! Oh, and ROBERT Comes HOME!!