get stupid and drunk!! I can't bring myself to do it...It's been a looooonnng time since I had even one drink...so two would probably qualify me as stupid drunk. But I just can't...
I have such a wonderful, beautiful family...so why, why am I falling deeper into the canyon of despair?
It hit me hard today when I was out and about to pick up Harley. I saw my profile in the store window and then again in the van as I was walking up to it...I LOOK pregnant! I've been symptom free all day...I just can't keep up the charade of feeling confident this baby's gonna make it...so why the cruel joke making me look pregnant already? I mean, I've got the curve in the back and all, like a pregnant woman would have...
I know there's a reason for all this but for the life of me, I just can't figure it out yet...I know I will get past this...I'm just hugging my kids a little harder now than I did before...
I guess once I have a definite answer I'll be able to move on and figure out why this is happening...But I don't think I'll get closure til I know what's going on...This waiting is so painful!!
1 comment:
Tracy-
You are such a super mom and a super woman. I hope that you are pleasantly surprised come Friday when you have your next ultrasound. Remember most of us, including me had some sort of spotting or major bleeding, and had healthy babies in the end. I know the rollercoaster is hard to ride on....but just hold on. Yours is on the move.
Always thinking of you, and praying for you! HUGS ans LOVE=
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