Don't be alarmed...

If you don't hear from me today. I am feeling really down...I wish I could shake it...I just don't feel like I 'belong' anywhere...

Not in the TTC category...Not in the 2ww category...Not in the pregnancy category...Not in the loss category...How can I be somewhere in between all those categories? I feel like I'm in such limbo and there's nothing I can do but wait...

No more hcg tests unless Friday's ultrasound shows no change from last week. So here I sit...waiting for the boys to get up...and this not knowing anything...it's just killing me.

I thought of calling the OB about the two little spotting episodes I had over the weekend, but there's really nothing they can do...other than another ultrasound. I'd really rather wait till Friday for that.

So anyone who cares enough to be checking here...I really appreciate it. I am probably not going to post on the boards today (or the whole week if I can help it). I know I'm not strong enough not to read, but I know I can vent here...No sense in posting on a board just to bring everyone down...I would hate to think I've taken anyone 'down' to feel as low as I've felt the last day (and heading into day 2).

Don't worry, I will sit here and play with my boys, keep up with my hectic Monday schedule and I'm sure I'll have my moments of tears as well...For some reason I can't keep them at bay...