So after talking schmak about my DH...He comes home and lets me lay down for an hour while he deals with the OT and all the other things....I really have ABSOLUTELY NO REASON!! to be feeling so sad....
Still I broke down in tears AGAIN...The OT seems to think it's just the hormone inbalance, I sure hope so...
DH took the boys out to do the grocery shopping this afternoon and told me to just take some time for myself. As he was walking out the door he reminded me of the 'house rules' (with teens in the house, it's usually: no drugs, no drinking, no sex...) but with me the rules were: NO CHORES! He's going to cook dinner this evening and give me basically the whole day off...He really is sweet and I am waaay too hard on him...
We did have a discussion about where all of our friends have gone...well...It's just a double edged sword. All of our 'real' friends have moved out of town and we're just not the travelling type...Our other 'friends' were not really friends...They were back from our doing drugs and drinking days...They all kind of fell off the face of the earth when we decided that the 'drugs and drunk' lifestyle was not for us...Who really needs that stuff? We have our precious kids and the new one on the way and we really couldn't be more blessed...
SO let me end with
I am so blessed to have everyone in my life!! This includes the ladies on the board who share all the ups and downs with me and make me feel like I really am not alone...My kids who turn to me with their problems (I would much rather them do that than turn to someone less trustworthy...God who has blessed me with the online friendships I have, Harley, Tyler, Robert, Kelly and Andrew (and Zachary too)! I will find my spark again and be back to my normal self in no time!!
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Tracy - i'm so sorry that you are feeling down. i am sure pregnancy plays a huge part. for my whole 12 weeks of pregnancy i was so tired and moody, i never really had my "spark" even when i ran into my uncle at the grocery store, he asked if i was sick and when i said i was pregnant he just laughed and said, "oh, sick for nine months, huh?" i am glad dh gave you the chance to rest and relax. you deserve it. you are supermom. it is very nice to have online friends. i relate to the whole friends that aren't really friends anymore. we have so many "bar" friends, friends we have had for years, but we only saw them at the bar or at parties because all they do is drink, we have not been to the bar in over a year and even when we invite any of them over, all they want to do is drink...it is hard, we are not really into that. too bad we don't live closer to each other...
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